the lamination over my heart, is thawing.

brand new days, seem less appalling.

now, I rather meet a stranger than a friend.

I rather face my fear of danger, than romance.

my pride continues to stay inside.

my grace is fleeting.

but my mind is leading me to another tower of peace.

I am all I need.

I only have to check myself -

and not the ones that I let into my space.

I can’t control anyone else.

but I’m finding joy in the pain.

there’s joy found in my tears.

and sunshine follows after the rain.

after all these years, I face my true self and look ashamed.

I let people speak ill on my name.

I let those closest to me cause excruciating pain.

or is that something they did?

some hid behind their well of lies.

threw rocks and stones at me -

but couldn’t handle them being thrown back.

look at that!

the truth remains.

I am no victim.

but I speak up against lies.

I speak up against bullies.

and I detest those who have swarming bees of animosity that follow them -

with gut wrenching narcissist tendencies.

y’all never saw my side.

I can’t handle the fakeness.

I can only handle the truth.

I am my own keeper.

you do you.

have fun living in the theme park of your own mental deception and frills.

I got off the ride.

I’m taking care of myself.

I wish you nothing but blessings and good health.