You didn’t win.

That constant need…

For someone to like me

Has caused me more misery than joy

It’s robbed my soul.

It’s held me hostage.

I say no.

No more.

To the thoughts in my head

That don’t let me rest.

My cynical inner voice believes they think I’m a toy

A toy that can be picked up and played with

-only when they want to play-

Leaving me alone for the rest of the day

In a sense, I have never experienced a jaunt with these people

No.

They want me used up, and then they’re gone.

I have to write my own freeing song.

They want me quiet and harmonious always

That’s not how you’re supposed to spend your days.

I can’t even make a sound

When the anger inside me, is roaring to be let out.

If I do…

They flail their arms and leave in a haste

Oh, how many mistakes I have made.

A hurry to where you say?

I don’t know.

I just know I’m unafraid

Of standing alone

Of holding my own hand

Of giving myself love and adoration

I once thought had to only come from humans.

Mere humans want me to cower.

To shrink.

Ha!

While they leech me dry, and dare not even check up on me.

Alas, It’s alright.

I keep myself at night.

I still have my power.

You didn’t take my voice.

You may have made me cry.

But I didn’t have a choice.

You’ll never take me hostage again.

All those evil thoughts and trends can leave with you.

I’m my own person.

I make the rules of my life.

You didn’t like my boundaries?

Oh dear friend, take flight!

I shall always be me in the end.

You didn’t win this last time, my “friend.”